Monthly Archives: September 2011

eating italian, mexican and indian…

Life has been mixed up here. I had some depression and anxiety, but not too much. I’m not sure why but every morning I feel really good. Upbeat, a bit elated, strong and even lucid in the mind. I’m not … Continue reading

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up and down, up and down

It’s been a good two days. After I deleted Dominions from my harddrive I felt much better and I quickly found other games in my possession which are exciting to play too. I’m trying to work on my resilience. If … Continue reading

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life in Eppendorf

Today was a good day. Some days ago I was getting doubts about a game I had been playing a lot, Dominions 3. It has a lot of magic in it and I felt bad about it very often. But … Continue reading

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update

The last few days were not so great. First the breakup with Vicky, then emotional troubles. Like I alluded to in a previous post, I had fallen into some sexual sin – I was visiting some porn sites. After the … Continue reading

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valleys

Today began pretty good. I got up early and had my coffee and cigarettes. For some reason I have no fun with computer games lately. They either don’t interest me, or I can’t pay enough attention. I hope that gets … Continue reading

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and on and on and on….

Today was not so great again. For starters, I had really weird dreams at night again. About dad again. They weren’t full fledged nightmares, but they were uncomfortable. After I woke up because of them I smoked a cig and … Continue reading

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and life goes on and on and on…

Today I’m not feeling so good anymore. I chatted a bit with Vicky and it hurt I could not tell her lovely names anymore. But you can’t have the cake and eat it too. I must remember why I quit … Continue reading

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